Why?

Why do I lack such self-confidence when it comes to my husband? I am so terrified he is going to leave me, all I do is sabotoge myself!! Their are so many better choices than me out there. He could have anyone he wanted...someone thin, brunette, petite...all the things that he is attracted to....all the things I'm not. I dont even know why he married me...he will just leave once he finds someone more appealling!!

Well, its official! I will be staying here for another 1 1/2 years while my husband moves to Virginia...no going to Japan, no being able to see him...just nothingness for the next almost 2 years...I just want to die!! He is the love of my life and he is leaving me!! I'm sure he cant wait to get away!! Why does this have to be so hard...perhaps it would be easier if I was still in Missouri where I had family and friends!! Here I have nothing!! It's just me and my daughter and the nothingness of being alone!! I dont know how these women do it when their men leave...I dont think I am strong enough to handle all of this!!

Peace out!
Tams